A voice from inside…

All my life I’ve been a drug addict, at least since I was 13 years old. What caused me to come down this life road? 

IDOC # 101969 Inmate Daniel, I was supposed to be somebody special. Not some loser. 

What makes me a loser? Societies views, and harsh opinions do… 

In the eyes of the law I’m nothing more than a criminal. A bad person, with a history of lying to the police. I’ve only ever been who I am, but who am i? 

The best part about being human, is the ability to change. 

Maybe I was a loser once, a drug addict who lied to the police. I have committed crimes. I’ve done, bought, and sold, I’ve slammed, smoked, snorted, even ate all types of drugs. 

I’ve stolen, borrowed, and used, I’ve been stolen from, robbed, mugged, and raped, I’ve been molested in my youth. 

I’ve given and I’ve taken all types of abuse. I’ve hated, and I’ve loved, I’ve built and I’ve broken. I’ve hoped and I’ve hurt, had and I’ve lost. 

I’ve been dirty, and homeless, alone, and now found, I’ve been clean, and I’ve cried, I’ve lived, and i’ve died, I’ve tried and I’ve failed, I’ve been numb, and I’ve felt. 

I’ve been beaten, and I’ve won… I’ve come and I’ve gone, and damn it I’m back again. 

I can’t change the things that have already happened, but being human I can change who I am going to become. 

Faith is believing in what you can’t see. At this moment life isn’t easy for me but that doesn’t mean anything. I just have to keep believing, and continue to be me.

– Amber Daniel