To Those I Hurt – Jordan Earls

I still can’t figure out
if I am just angry at you
for refusing to love me or
if I only resent myself
for throwing away that love.
How many nights have I spent
shaking my head at
your lack of forgiveness
while ignoring the fact that
I may not actually deserve it.

It’s been almost ten years
and I still think of you

I envision your faces
and your smiles and
I see them melt away
into scowls as I
imagine they do whenever
you think of me.

Forgive me,
I’m not throwing myself
a pity party;
I’m just telling you
the truth.

Forgive me,
this has been on my mind
for quite a while,
you see?

Forgive me,
but I still love
all of you.

Forgive me,
I beg you.

Forgive me.

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